A friend of mine just texted me to let me know that she is pregnant and I immediately broke down in tears. I am very happy for her and know that they want a lot of kids. She has a one year old and they just recently started trying again. She is 6 weeks pregnant. I just feel so horrible that I feel this way. I don't understand how it is so easy for some people and impossible for others. I just can't help but feel like I will never get pregnant or stay pregnant. I know her getting pregnant doesn't take a baby from me, but it just reminds me that other people can get pregnant and have babies, and I can not.
I'm sorry B. I don't know what else to say. I just wanted you to know even though I knew it'd have to hurt like hell. I'm really sorry.
ReplyDeleteI totally understand, Bridge. Anyone struggling with TTC has been there and understands the pain. It always blows my mind how I can be so happy for a friend or loved one, but still so jealous at the same time. Xo!
ReplyDeleteBridge, I've been struggling with those sorts of feelings BIG time lately. It doesn't help that compounding on top of those feelings are feelings of being a bad friend/sisinlaw/whatever, so I feel even worse.
ReplyDeleteI personally find you to be unbelievably strong. You have gone through so much and I hope and pray that you get your baby. I honestly can't wait for it to happen for you.
I felt that way the first few months after we started trying. Once I started focusing on losing weight and getting healthy, it made me feel a little better and now I'm not so upset. I completely understand how you feel!
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