Sunday, September 23, 2012

Angel Baby

One of my friends posted this on facebook today and I really loved it. 

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Rough Day

I am 1 DPO today I think. I got a positive OPK yesterday and my temped spiked today, so fingers crossed. I'm glad about that and excited to see if this is lucky cycle #14, but I had a super rough day today.

I had school today and I'm studying to become an RN. My friend and I were doing a project where we have to do a health assessment on each other. It's like a full physical and has to be video taped so the instructor can watch it. We were in the video taping room just practicing going over all the questions and she gets to the pregnancy part. She knows I miscarried and she started getting sad about having to ask me questions about it. One of them was how many pregnancies have you had? And how many live births? She thought that it wasn't a very nice way to word the question but I told her that that is really how they ask in the hospital so just go ahead and say it. Then she started saying how she was so sorry I had to go through that and how it isn't fair, and that is when I started getting teary and then she said that she just wanted to hug me. So then that is when I started bawling. I just can't handle it. Then she was crying for me and telling me how I will get my baby and it will happen and how it's so not fair. I was a mess. I'm a mess right now just typing it out. We decided when we did the real deal and video taped it, I was just going to say I've never been pregnant and never had any surgeries. We got through it, but ooo man it was rough. Still is rough. I don't know when I'm going to be able to talk about it without crying. I thought I was to that point, but I guess not.

Friday, September 7, 2012

CD 4

Chris's cousin went to the hospital tonight. She thinks she might be in labor! I am so excited for her, but it got me thinking about my pregnancy and now I'm in a funk.

I started thinking about how Chris always use to tell me to just "sit on my nest". He didn't want me to ever do anything. He wanted to do everything for me. It was so cute. Just thinking about that makes me cry.

I hope someday it gets better.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Cycle 14, CD 1

I don't understand how I got here. How I got to the point where Chris and I have been trying for 14 cycles to get pregnant. Add in the 11 weeks I was pregnant and that's like 17 cycles. How did this happen? How am I not pregnant yet. I thought we would already have a baby by now. I should still be pregnant. I should be finding out the sex. I just don't understand. How is it so easy for some people and impossible for others? Why am I in the impossible group?

Sunday, September 2, 2012


Still negative. My temp went up a bit today though so who knows what's going on. I ran out of all my cheap  wondfo internet tests so I bought a couple from the dollar store to use tomorrow. I'm feeling kind of optimistic because my temp did go up, but I am officially late and I'm still getting negatives so it's kind of frustrating. This is my first real cycle after my D&C so I guess my body could be changing and I might have longer cycles now. Who really knows.

Wedding: Ceremony

Our ceremony was at 1pm. We had a traditional Catholic ceremony without the mass. I walked down the aisle to Canon in D.

My mom and Chris's mom lighting the candles.

Father Joe, Chris and his men.

Bridesmaid Emily

Bridesmaid Audrey

Bridesmaid Crissy

Bridesmaid Ashley

My sister and Maid of Honor, Courtney

My dad and I

Chris looking nervous

Here we gooo

1st reader, my friend, Jenelle

2nd reader, my friend, Chelsea



Lighting the Unity Candle

3rd reader, my aunt Jeri


Announcing us as husband and wife

First kiss!

Officially husband and wife


Off to the reception we go

Tomorrow I will post our formal pictures, Tuesday will be family pictures and then Wednesday will be reception pictures!

Saturday, September 1, 2012


I didn't have enough time today to do a ceremony post, so that will have to come tomorrow.

I tested today and I got another negative. My temp was the same as yesterday so I'm not sure how I feel. I will be testing again tomorrow morning.

Chris and I spent the day today celebrating our anniversary. We went and got his wedding band fixed. It looks so good. We were surprised and how good it actually came out. You can't even tell it was cut in two places. We also had dinner at the hotel where our reception was held. There was a wedding there while we were there and we saw and talked to the wedding planner we had. She told us she got married in October and found out she was pregnant right after and had a baby in June. I was definitely very jealous. That is exactly how I wished it would have worked out for us, but o well. I ordered a cake from the bakery that made our wedding cake too, so we had some of that tonight. Tomorrow and Monday we are going to my parent's lake house. Our actually wedding anniversary is Monday so we will probably watch our wedding video that night.

Good vibes for tomorrow!