Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Cycle 15: All my fault.

Today is the first day of cycle 15. That is insane to me. I honestly can not believe I am even sitting here writing this. I should have a baby by now. I just don't understand.

I can't get over the fact that if Chris was with someone else he would probably have his baby by now. He is perfectly fine. All his swimmers and in tip top shape. I am the cause of this. I am the reason we don't have a baby. I am the reason he can't be a daddy. I couldn't even stay pregnant when I was given the opportunity. All of this is my fault, and I just can't get over it.

6 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry! I'm sure it's hard not to blame yourself but I hope deep down you know it's not really your fault.

    Good luck

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  2. I can't imagine how hard that is. Just remember, you have no control over any of it. It's not your fault, even though it may feel like it is. Just keep praying and have faith. It will happen!

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  3. it is NOT your fault! it will happen when it is supposed to, timing is key. there is a reason why you don't have that baby yet, we just don't know what that reason is. it will come.i am praying for you, always always. <3

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  4. I know that you are hurting right now and that nothing is able to soothe that but this isn't your fault and nothing you did made you not be able to stay pregnant. I wish I could say something to help you feel better! Your body is working so very hard trying to give you the thing that you want, please don't give up and be gentle on yourself.

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  5. I don't know what you're going through or how you feel. But I know what it's like to want something so badly and not get it. Don't blame yourself. There is a plan. There is a reason. Someday you will look back on this and see why this happened.

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  6. You can not let yourself feel like this is your fault. You didn't do anything to put yourself in this situation and you certainly didn't deserve it. (((HUGS))) Please try to put that thought out of your mind.

    Plus, I assume your husband wouldn't want to have a baby with anyone else :) There's a reason why you're together so just focus on that.

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